Wednesday, January 7, 2009

Long rest~ RIP

Haha.. R.I.P= rest in peace...
Tat was wad our famous teacher, Ang, told us to do after he finished torturing us with the add maths's homework...

Hmm... i just found out tat i had not updated my blog for so long...
However, i would not have the time either to blogging now because SPM!!
A lot of homeworks waving their hands to me, books calling for me and also parents' nagging if i dare not to study...
So, basically, ya~

Bubai, blog....
Might update for the next year, just after my SPM or even longer(if I decided to take some courses after SPM..)=D

Monday, December 22, 2008

Cousie's wedding...So sweet(only photo-blogging)



Everyone get ready during dinner at my cousin's house...Hmm...Tat was the day before the wedding dinner...=D
Hmm... getting ready to record the marks... the more the cards left, the more money to be paid.. Uhuu~(That's my cousin from England...Gamble Queen, i would say...So lucky...) But actually, no1 paid the money afterall...it's just a game..XD
Everyone's so serious...(oopps!!=X Police sir, pls dont catch us...It's just a game...We din use money...=P)
The next day morning...All cousins take a group photo together... So happy... We were there to "pang teh(hokkien)" = serve the bride a cup of tea, and yes!! You will get an angpau!! Haha
Me and Ping jie from England^.^
Ping jie and sis...
Photo taken for the uncles and aunts+ my parents and the new couple..Hehe
Chang, ping and pei pei....My cousins from (Betong)
Jie, ping and qi...Cousins from (Sri aman)
Ting jie, Ming, ting ting, kang, yun, ping jie.... All my cousins from Sri Aman.
Photo taking session with the bride and groom... 1st pose...

2nd pose...
3rd pose...
Serving tea... a bit blur..
The stage at Banquet...(wedding dinner)
Chang and jie
Uncle Leong and his wife (cute and funny couple)
Me and Pei...
The Bride and Groom
Cutting cakes
Singers of the night...so pretty err...
The first Emcee of Rynn's concert too...Remember?? Hehe...An excellent Emcee=3
Pouring the Red winE... Always be together forever...
The family photo...
Me and Uncle Leong + Noi Yi
With sis and da' antique car outside Banquet
With Yen jie and Cousin-in-law...

I am BAD GIRL~

Since when.....I've totally changed...
This is wad my papa accused me a few days ago...
He said, i'm growing bad... Like replying him in a rude way...sometimes shout too...

Ok!! I admitted that... I'm kinda rude, sometimes...But, that's just because he always said something opposite... Something that's not logic or wrong...
And, he's always the one who wanna shout wif me 1st, not me...k?
I'm just "accompanying" u to see who's the one with the loudest voice!! Hmph!!

In fact, I think i'm out of control sometimes... I will just scold back in a way that i dont really realise that i'm actually, being rude...
Tat day, when he said, " I wont let u go to church anymore....Never!! I am a Buddhist, so u're not a Christian too..."
See?? What does that mean?? Isnt it weird??
Even the government doesnt forbid the citizens from choosing their own religions...
However, now, my papa's telling me to stop being a Christian!!
Tat's when, i....m angry....ANGRY!!
I just cant talk to him anymore... I mean, "communicate"...
It seems like he lives in his own world, where everyone has to listen to his demand...

He doesnt know how God has saved his daughter...
He doesnt know how God has let his daughter survive from stress...
He doesnt know how rude it is to stop me from going to church....
He doesnt know EVERYTHING!!

His daughter almost DIE!!
His daughter almost became an insane!!
His daughter need God to save her...
Can he understands me??

The memory is still vivid in my mind...
The night when i wanna give up my life...
The night when i cried whole night and thought " What should i do in this world? I'm so useless"...
But then, my friend advised me to leave it to God... and pray...
I did it, and...yes!! Now, i'm still ok... It's all because of God...
I'm a Buddhist before too...
But then, i'm not tat..."believe" in this religion... Just as i joined Christian, i really felt that Jesus is always by my side to support me...
Going through all the tough moments, i'm really glad that i know Him....

Now, papa's stopping me from believing my saviour...
He said that i'm turning bad after becoming a Christian...
No!! It's just that everyone will have this so-called rebelliant period and start to disobey their parents' orders... It's nothing connected to my religion...
In fact, if i'm not a Christian, i'll be worse... I'll....mayb....hate my papa...yes, hate!!
But, Jesus told us to love our parents just like how He loves us...
We cannot hate our parents... So, i'm trying hard...
Everytime when i wanna shout, i remembered these...
This time, i'm trying hard too...
But, he just doesnt let me to go to church---a place that teaches me to control my own temper, and changes my attitude... Does that mean.... he wanna me to turn bad??

I dont understand... I wanna explain how important it is, for me to go to church...
But, i'm not given that chance...He refused to listen to anything regarding Christian...
He even said that anyone who drives me to church, he will spoil that car...
Hmm... i noe he can do that...
For now, i can only pray...because i still love my papa...
Although he's kinda unreasonable...But i know he protects me..always. So... I can only depend on God to do the rest...

Dear God,
I hope that God will change my papa's mind and let me go to church...
It's Christmas soon... I've been looking forward to this celebration with passion..
Please, God, dont let me down...I really enjoy the time in church with other friends...and God.
Jesus, it's your big day... I love You soo much...
Let me celebrate this celebration with You...
Allow me to go to church at anytime next year...to join the teenager's fellowship...
Let papa realised that God is the way...God changes me into a better nature...
Please...with Jesus name i pray, Amen.

Saturday, December 20, 2008

圣诞游街+ 给少团弟兄姐妹的信

今天是我第一次参与全古晋教区所举办的圣诞踩街游行。
很兴奋。。。

沿街上,我们一边走,一边唱着平安夜的歌。。。很感动。。
我呢,就忘了带相机去啦。。。所以就没有拍到照片咯。。。
可是,今天的一切一切是我不会忘记的。。。

一路上,GARY都有跟我讲话。。。很感谢,因为星吟得待在花车上,不能陪我。。
很高兴又认识了一位朋友。。。而且是未来的心理医生哦。。。
GARY说他的父母本来想要他做律师的,可是他希望自己可以读心理学,也是为了以后方便自己做牧师时,可以开导教堂里的门徒们。。
在他身上,我才真正的学习到,原来做耶稣基督的门徒,可以为了主、爱主,而这样的去亲近主。
我也想这样,可惜,我的这个愿望,可能永远都不能实现了吧。。。


亲爱的团契里的各位弟兄姐妹们:

很感谢你们陪了我半年之久。。在这半年里, 我真的学习了很多,也帮助我走出很多低潮的日子。
在我还没参加少团时,我自认为是一位开朗的女孩,每天都嘻嘻哈哈的。。。可是,在踏入中四后,我便开始变了。。也不知道是自己变得太快了还是别的原因,我就感觉周围的朋友也不知不觉地,变了。。。不像我当初认识的一样,在我想玩的时候,大家都好认真,而当大家在玩时,我又融合不进他们了。。。曾经有想要放弃自己的一生,结束自己的生命,可是,耶稣基督救了我。。。让我到了一个欢乐的地方,一个他在的地方-------少团。

不过,参加团契后,我真的慢慢的把自己的一星期里的期望放在星期六,因为可以到少团和大家一起唱歌。。。或许大家会觉得说唱歌、查经,也都是平常事了,可是对我来说却很重要。。。因为在家里,没有人陪我一起唱歌,玩爽。。。
不是因为我是独生女,而是因为家里都没有人和我一起信主的,就连大姐(信主的),也到吉隆坡了。。。二姐呢,明年也不在家里了,会到别位受护士训练。。。家里,就只剩下我一个人。。。我也曾经说过,爸爸一直都反对我成为基督徒的,因为他本身是拜神的。。。所以,以后我的基督生活就会变得更加艰难了。。。

参加团契时,我常常不能完整的出席每个团契活动(因为爸爸的反对,所以没人载我到教堂),但是,我很努力。。。我一直在祷告。。。之后,奇迹就出现了。。。爸爸似乎也渐渐的没对我参与少团的事情产生抗拒。。我很开心,让我认识了很多朋友。。。其中有(不知道真正名字怎么写): 咸蛋(戴)、饼盒(柄合)、义俊(搞笑的)、宁宁、嘉美、丽珠、眉珠、PAMELA、GARY、贤朗、善美、CRYSTAL、 豪美等。。。有些或许不是很熟,但是,你们都在我的人生低潮期给了我希望和勇气。。。特别感谢丽珠眉珠,因为在爸爸反对的这段期间愿意载我 到教堂参加团契。。还有星吟,因为在我半夜打电话给你哭时,你都会安慰我。。。跟我一起祷告。。还有大姐,因为一直劝我不可以放弃主,也让爸爸的观念改了。。。

不过,现在,我要休息一下子了。。。或许明年的日子我无法到团契里度过了。。。原因是什么呢?我不能说,但是,我只能说是家里因素,想必大家都能想像得到。。。这次的原因,不容许我再坚持我的立场(到团契),因为我不想因为我的因故而害了其他无辜的人被骂。。。就算是这样,我还是一直和大家一起的。。。我不会就结束我当基督徒,和耶稣立下的约定。。。
本来,我对今年,即将来临的圣诞节,抱有很大的希望的。。可是,看来,今年,我还是无法到教堂和大家一起庆祝圣诞节了。。。在家里,我会和大家一起唱着圣诞歌, 一起笑,一起迎接耶稣的纪念日子的。。。有句很老套的话,那就是"暂时的休息,只是为了走更远的路"。。。对。我会再回到团契的。。或许是当我中五读完后,又或是进入青团年龄时吧。。。

此外,我也有些话想特别对GARY 和贤戴说的:
你们就要离开团契了。虽然相处的时间不长,可是,却还是很舍不得。。。贤戴,第一次看到你时,我本来一位你是主席的,因为那时好像是你做领会的吧。。。说了很多话呢!! 之后,星吟告诉我你的名字时,我还很坏的听成"咸蛋"。之后,曾经在古晋节看到你,很开心,因为本来以为你会不记得我(打扮得像阿婶一样),可是你会打招呼,那就代表,我也不是默默无闻的啦。。所以,那时,我就把你列为我在团契里的第一位新朋友(星吟和丽珠眉珠早就认识了)。。之后,有时,会说说话,虽然不多,但是你真的很有"梗"。。。也很亲切啦。。。

至于GARY嘛,应该是认识不到两个礼拜的朋友 咯。。。上次在分享会时,很幸运可以和你一组。。。原来你都中五完了。。明年也要离开团契了。会很舍不得吧。。。真正认识你是在今天的游行吧。。。我们谈了很多,也让我深深的觉得你真的很爱主。。。未来的心理医生,要好好加油哦。。。别忘了,到英国要好好熟悉以下,或许当我和星吟到那儿时,会需要你当导游呢!!也要坚持你当牧师的梦想哦。。。也谢谢你开导了我。。。你可能觉得"有吗?"。。。有的,你的态度就足足让我赞叹了。。。也改变了我的一些想法,让我觉得,有时,应该要勇敢的追求自己的理想。。。

应该是不能参加欢送会了吧。。。很可惜,但是,希望你们会看到我的这篇文章。。。谢谢你们。。。

感谢主,让我曾经在晋道堂的少团室里踏上我的脚步。。。感谢主,让我的生活里曾经走过这么精彩的人。。。感谢主,让我的灵命在短短的半年里增加了。。。
如果可以,我希望可以一直参加团契,到教堂。。。时间很短,但是我真的很爱大家。。。感谢主。


丽洁

Monday, December 15, 2008

Creative Handy Items....D.I.Y by me...

Hmm...Last last Saturday after i attended the Christian Fellowship, i decided to take part in a lantern-making competition in church for the parade hold on this coming Saturday....
At first, i did not noe wad to do and where and what to buy for the materials....I cant find the "lantern paper", so lastly, i decided to make it using toothpicks..
Ok!! It really tested my patience... Imagine this, sticking the toothpicks 1 by 1 to make a Christmas tree...
Hmm, the cost was really expensive too, cos i din plan before i buy, so, i wasted lots of money on sth useless, which make my mum burns her top of this...

Front view
Side view
Back view
The rod
Overall look



Then, after finished making the lantern, there's still many materials left, so i started to use them to decorate my room...=D
Erm, everything was running smooth and i was quite impressed with the products... I love them...(tat was the products a few days ago...)
The small board that i sticked onto the wall...
The notice box...It's decorated to stick notes on it... Hehe...=D The prettier it is, the more energy i have to study mar...
The tissue box, made out of chocolate chips' box...


Besides, i've already filled all my jewelleries into the jewellery's box given by 7 sis oh...i like it soo much...Cos it's pink and it has hello Kitty on it!! hehe..Thanks...
The first ring is from.........***** , hehe=P Aiyo... Dont think too much it's from Nikki(7 sis)..Everyone had 1, with different colours...


Today, i saw a file, which i got it from 1 of my seniors, KFA(Hehe...U forgot to take back ur file...=P)..So, i used it to make a kind like photo album for 7 sis...Hope u guys like it...=3
Front view
Back view
The inside...Only half-way done...




So, now... Who else have sth to be decorated, but not started yet, get it to me...If i can, i will help u!!^.^