Long "tiang" again...

Ha!! Feeling relieved now...
After everything is over, i'm kinda relax and not alert at all!!

Juz now, as i was walking in the school compound, headed to the main gate through canteen, Jia Haw told me that he saw JS near the toilet...So i was kinda disappointed as i didnt saw JS(my idol, recognized as the "most"*or mayb second* handsome guy among form 4---not sure bout it, at least till now, he is)...

JS- a guy, Form 4, tall, fair, polite, good-looking, many girls are crazy bout him...

OK!! Now, so as i was chatting (or scolding n nagging) with Jia Haw, i didnt notice the tiang (pole) in front of me...
Then, as i turned, my "steel" head knocked straight onto the pole and produced a loud "bang"....
Everyone, especially the afternoon session students laughed at me....
If u wonder where JH was at that time, well, he walked right in front of me, quite far away already...But right at the time i knocked onto the pole, he turned his head n headed back...
So you could imagine how strong is the impulsive force(physics)...
Ok, i have this good attitude that whenever i talked to someone, i would look straight to the person whom i'm having a conversation with...
And that's the walk-down too...
This is not the first time i had knocked my iron-made head onto the pole...
But,....i just cant stop this tragedy...
See?? It happened again today...

When i reviewed bout the whole incident just now, it was kinda funny, no wonder everyone laughed.... How stupid i m....
Well, just now, when i was talking to jH, actually we were walking quite slowly.
And when the conversation ended and i noticed that i had to get to the car quickly so that i wont miss my tuition, i conserved lots of energy and turned my body around to walked quickly to the main gate....
Unfortunately, just as i turned, the pole was right in front of me, greeting my teeny-weeny head...
So, the whole incident was like, i purposely knocked my head onto the pole....
It's so funny and stupid!!

I told my mum bout it, but she get so serious with this matter, she even asked me to go for X-Ray checking....
Ok, it's not that serious....
It's just a "bump" on my forehead now....

NO BIG DEAL...





No big deal??


Really??


Erm...



Eheh...

我只是一個小小人物。。

ComMittE BoARd...Hey guyS, tIs cooL piC can bE
puT aS a BrocHure giVen to oTher UniT duRing AGM　ｅｈ！！
A HaPpY tE@m to Go..~
A smiLe =D to remember, i will be hapPy...
taken by my sis...so serious look ya...

今天剛剛參與完紅新月會的meeting...
今天是intersection footdrill competition, 是為了收索marching 人才而舉辦的，因為inter youth unit footdrill competition 就快到了。。。
大家都做的很好，很自豪因為members 都很努力學，當然還是有些很懶散。。。
不過，我相信他們會被感染，越來越上進。。。
Footdrill competition 之后，我們就有個committee meeting...
上一屆的HSL, 她宣布了新一屆的職員名單。。。
×名單的內容我就不多說了×
但是，我的post 是section leader lo....
真的也不知道要感到開心還是不開心。。。
jor 說應該要開心的，因為不會太stress....

就是有點傷心+失望=paiseh...

本來我應該是HSL的， 不過我放棄了。。。
有很多原因，但是，有些原因我都沒說，因為我不想傷和氣。。。
可是后來我發現說了好像又比沒說好，
所以我決定把所有的感覺寫下來。。
很多被列入職員名單的人都有玩blogspot, 所以希望他們會看到我寫的事，然后忘了一切。。。
因為真的只是發泄而已。。。
我不想搞很多事，很煩惱的。。。

那時我會放棄HSL 的位子是因為：
1。 我爸爸管我很嚴，像camp 啊，他都不會讓我參加，所以當上HSL 之后，讓我覺得說如果身為HSL的，又不代表unit 去參與camp ,好像很不妥當。。。

2。那時考試要到了，而很多事發生---
老師懷疑我的能力，然后Ｅ．Ｓ為了幫我，向老師說了很多好話（謝謝）。。。不過沒用。。。還記得有一次，要放學時，ＥＳ來班上找我，說老師講我為了一點點小事（ａｄｄ　ｍａｔｈｓ　不會做）　就哭，覺得我不能做ＨＳＬ，　結果ES說我最好是快點拿出點成績給老師看，像是organise 一個活動之類的。。。那晚我哭得很慘（現在想想也覺得自己很沒用）， 因為我又沒有去過jungle trekking, camp 之類的。。。一時要我做好，根本不可能。。。那時我才發現我很沒經驗。。。別人都可以輕而易舉的計劃出一個很好的jungle trekking活動，他們知道哪里拿資料，哪里有供人trek, 我都不知道。。。然后因為是放學之后講的，所以我又不能找別人說，就覺得自己很孤獨的一個人做事。。。
我也有覺得說為什么老師只針對我，而不針對EC...她是我的助手啊。。。那時我就覺得自己真的很不受肯定，也是為什么我會一直做不了決定，因為我已經沒信心了。。。

3。我根本不像個HSL。。。（我接下來說的話，涉及到的人，請不要覺得我backstab 你，我只是說出來可能會舒服點，afterall, everything is a past already...)

那時讓我覺得我根本不像HSL的，是JC。。。其實，是因為我一直心里都覺得她應該是HSL的（現在她真的是了，我很開心。。。真的很開心）。。。然后每次meeting 的時候，都是她在講話。。讓我沒有插話的余地。。。就讓我覺得到底是誰才是HSL 啊？？ 因為她實在是太像HSL，也應該是HSL的人。。。然后還有就是ＥＳ和ＥＣ。。。Ｋ和ＥＳ曾經問我為什么會覺得自己在“上面”　做事很孤單。。其實是因為我覺得每次我身為一個ＨＳＬ，我什么事都不知道。。。ｅｇ．　ｉｎｔｅｒ-ｙｏｕｔｈ　ｕｎｉｔ　ｆｏｏｔｄｒｉｌｌ　ｃｏｍｐｅｔｉｔｉｏｎ，　都是ＥＳ先跟EC講然后EC才告訴我。。幾失敗一下咯。。。為什么是assistant 來告訴我，而不是我告訴assistant?? 我知道她們的感情很好很好，所以ＥＣ先知道我也不奇怪。。。可是難免我會覺得很尷尬，因為別人問我有什么什么的，我都不知道。。。而且還是ａｓｓｉｓｔａｎｔ　知道的比我多。。。或許他們會覺得說如果我不知道的話，我就應該問，可是如果一個人真的什么都不知道的話，那么請問要從哪里問起啊？？　就好像如果Ａ要舉辦movieｄａｙ　，　Ｂ　什么都不知道，而且連這計劃都不知道，除非Ｂ有特意功能或有人告訴他，否則Ｂ怎么可能會莫名奇妙去問Ａ，＂ｍｏｖｉｅ　ｄａｙ　要去哪里啊？”　這類的問題呢？？

還有一件事，其實我也快要忘記了。。。想上次要去參加ｓｔ．ｔｅｒｅｓａ　的ａｇｍ　時，EC拿到信后，就send 了一封message 給我，她說the st.teresa agm, i go with jc, izit ok?? 那時我就覺得很奇怪咯。。。可能她不是故意的，而是問得方式有問題。。。為什么她沒有問我要不要去，而是直接問我可不可以和JC一起去呢？依我所知，別個unit 的agm ,不是應該由HSL出席的嗎？ 那時，我也不知道要回什么，因為她沒問我要不要去，我也不可能自己問她說： “我不用去嗎？” 。。。多paiseh 啊。。。
不過，結果還是我和EC去了。。。只是這事雖然只是小事，卻也讓我覺得說，JC比較能夠和ＥＣ搭檔，而不是我。。。

結果我就自動放棄了ＨＳＬ的位子了。。。
今天其實我早就有做好心里準備了。。。
只是當Ｋ說她有點失望因為我“不愿意做ＨＳＬ，而沒有盡到ＨＳＬ的責任”　讓我覺得很傷心啊。。。
因為我的確不想做，可是我有想辦法做好來，我的失敗不是在于我不想做，而特意不做好好來。。。而是在那個時候，就準準那個時候，　我就真的ｆａｉｌ　ｔｏ　ｄｏ　ｍｙ　ｂｅｓｔ　，　ｂｕｔ　ｉ　ｓｗｅａｒ　ｉ　ｒｅａｌｌｙ　ｗａｓ　ｓｔｒｕｇｇｌｉｎｇ　ｈａｒｄ　ｔｏ　ｄｏ　ｍｙ　ｂｅｓｔ．．．有很多原因讓我最后還是選擇放棄的。。。
因為我知道，也接近肯定的覺得，JC應該做HSL，如果我退的話，她一定會被選的（真的被我料中了，好彩啊。。。）BSM應該就要給更好的人才來管理，這樣我當初join bsm 時的bsm 樣子，才不會倒啊。。。

做SL其實是我一直所要的。。。
可是剛剛當K問我會開心嗎時，我真的不知道是開心還是失望。。。
雖然有心里準備，但是我還覺得很尷尬，最大的原因是因為：
我跟EC參加過st.teresa 的agm, 如果下星期她們來參與我們的agm 時，有發現我不是HSL了，好丟臉啊，哈哈哈哈哈哈。。。。。

不過不要緊啦，沒什么的嘛。。。最重要是我開心嘛。。。
做SL，跟members 一起我會比較開心，也比較自在。。。
今天的結果我很滿意，雖然我的朋友有些也跟我一起降職了，但是，其他的，都很ok....
想JC說的，希望未來的一年是美好的。。。

PS× 我寫這些不是要挑撥還是什么，全部都只是我的感覺而已。。。
別人可能做不到，可是我這人，真的是過了，一下子就忘了。。。
希望以后的bsm committee boARD 可以合作愉快。。。嘻嘻。。XD

To JC, EC, ES and KC...
Sorry to u guys cos i misunderstood u guys...Tat's all my feelings at tat time tat make me decided to let go the post... I understand i had caused u guys lots of troubles, sorry again.... For jC, BSM need u a lot... Good luck....

Once again, sorry ya~


SayinG oF thE dAy:
A PasT is A pAst.... DoNt SuffeR in ThE preSent wiF thE pasT inCideNt...

Un luckY~

UnluckY:
1. Yesterday, when i went for my English tuition, my bottle cap just opened and water flows out without me noticing it...When i realised, my shirt is wet already.... So unlucky...

2. Then 2day when i went for my ADD Maths tuition, as i came out from the car, i dropped my handkerchief and my hands are well-known for their "long-service pipe water"....So, i got my pants wet cos i rubbed my hand on them to keep my hands dry....(though not really useful)

3. Today we did our Biology peka, and by tomorrow, we had to hand in our results and all the documents...But just as i reached home and switched on my hp, my friends told me that all the results that we gained just now, wasn't correct... =.="

4. Today is the 2nd day i brought my beloved liuqin to school....Yesterday i brought it, but Foo Yong forgot to bring the Chinese Orchestra's room key. Today i brought it, Louisa said she will tell me when to bring the instrument...So basically, no stock checking, i bring the liu qin for "fun"? Aha!!~

Really unlucky... I want to go to church...
But my mum just told me that starts from this week, i cant go to church on saturday night for tuan2 qi4 le.... Cos kenaikan harga petrol!! Hmph!! I m really sad now...I missed tuan qi a lot...Though i just went for once...

Saying of The daY:
God, I need You now...I really NEED YOU...

Public duty?? HahaXD just went for breakfast...

This morning, i woke up very late, overslept le....
Then i remembered i had a public duty at waterfront at 7 a.m.
But the problem is, i woke up at 7am...
I quickly called nikki to tell her that i would reach later...
After awhile, i reached the venue...
As they were having a morning aerobic exercise, the road was closed....
My mum and i walked from Poly Clinic to Old court House...
Then she walked back, alone...
I so worried and sad....
Then i met with the others...
Eileen and Shan Liang went elsewhere le...
Then I suggested all of us went to have our breakfast together, cos i very jungry mar...HeheXD
So, we went to find eileen and sl....
But then as we were looking for them,
Jia jia said her uncle is having an exbition on his sport car, just right opposite to the aerobic venue...
Thus, we cross the road and watch the exhibition...
There are all kinds of sports car (after renovate de...)
Hehe...Very geng oh...

Especially the motocycle....
There are different types of renovated motorcycle...
Most of them looked like disney world's product...
So cute, i took some photo on them...
Will upload soon...
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OMG!!
My friend just asked me why dont i go to aylwin's house (my senior in chinese orchestra)...
I forgot jor!!
I paid for it le....There's a party...
That's not important (bout the money)....
Aylwin studies at KL le...
Now come back for a few weeks nia, and tonight's party is a celebration for our ZU Hun competition....
How can i forget?? How can I??
Cant meet Aylwin le...
And no celebration for Zu Hun le...
Stupid me!!
Sh*t....(Sorry, realy hate myself)
T.T *cry*
Why?? Stupid memory...
Stupid Jocelynn Tian!!
STUPID!!


Saying of the day:
Always note down important event in a notebook or in your handphone!!

Concert at Trinity!!

Yesterday i went to Trinity Church for a concert. It's 少年之夜。
Really fun!!
They sang a lot of songs then we dance with them, and jump!!
Ooo!! Very enjoying...
I saw a lot of friends there....I went there by the name of 晉道堂geh...
Our church had lots of people there....
The theme of the night is "勇敢走出去“。。。
Yup, agree. Have to be brave sometimes...
But not in doing bad works, instead, brave to try on something new...

I even saw a boy that used to go to the same tuition (ITS) with me last time during primary 4.
We always quarrel, then at last, i quit ITS so didnt see him for so long le...
He changed a lot (i changed a lot too, hehe>.<)
Surprisingly, he was the person-in-chrge of the concert....
He wore the coat, so mature-looking and tall and handsome? Haha....=D

Anyway, our church is having our concert soon too...
On August i think, if i'm not mistaken....
Sure it will be a fun and happy nite too!!

Saying of the Day:
Be BRAVE to try on everything good..God is always by our sides to help us...Trust him.

MatHs oliMpiaD coMpetitioN at UITM!!

Oh!!
2day was the mAths olimpiad CompetitioN at uiTm...
It was realy a tough day....
Overyall, we had to answer 9 questions (only?)
It might seems to be easy....
"9 questions only NIA..."
bUT IT REALLy took us two and a half hour to finish the paper...
Out of 9 questions, i only know how to answer 1 question NIA....
Haha...
At first i wanna give up le...
But luckily God teaches me not to give up easily and...
By the way, I "threw" RM10 into da competition eh, so at least have to "touch" the test paper first right?
Then before we came back to school, we took a photo outside the UITM(Universiti Teknologi Mara)....
We took our exam in the Auditorium 1...
It was so big, majestic....Cool~
How i wish to study in such classroom ya~
The air-conditioner, i think they need not pay for it....(so cold arr!!)
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我剛剛看完一本愛情小說哦。。。
最近又迷上了現代的愛情小說。。。
我現在看得呢是“十二星座男孩的愛情故事”----“王子愛你鐵了心”！
很好看啊。。。。
不過我前天看了巨蟹座的之后，苦了一整晚啊。。。
非常·極度·超級可憐的！！

那個男主角得知女主角有心臟病，需要立即移植心臟后，
好不遲疑的把自己的心臟捐給了女主角。。。
好偉大哦。。。
之后那女的發神經了，因為無法接受這事實，常常以為男主角還在她的身邊陪她講話。。。
男主角最后在死前有寫了一封信，藏在一本畫滿那女的畫像的話本里。。。
那封信很申請·很感動啊。。。

有幾句是：

“因為我愛你，所以就算是陪上了性命，我也沒關系。”
“聽見了嗎？我的心還想要多跳記下呢，所以帶這我的心，你不可以做傻事，要堅強的活下去哦。。”
“去找一個能夠好好照顧你的人吧。。。這是我第一次也是最后一次縱容你哦，你應該感到很高興吧？哈哈。。”
“我愛你。。。一直一直都愛著。。。”

Saying of the day:
To loVe is To SacrifiCe.

StupiD daY~

Wow!!! 2day was really stupiD!!!

StupiD! StupiD!!

I just "came back" from tuition....

Or should i say just came back from tuition centre then..=.=" Half an hour ago, i went for my physics tuition.

Once i reached there, i saw my friends going too.. Then when i was climbing the staircase, my friend ran down and told me:

"Class cancelled. Teacher's not here."

OMG!!

Then, i quickly chased my mum's car but then my mum had already driven away...

And i just realised that my hp out of credit...

Luckily i remembered that my friend, Hui Ching and her mother were at UNACO(a big grocery centre nearby---really near).

Thus, i walked there and asked for handphone to make a call to my dearest mum...

However, Hui Ching said that her hp had no credit too and her mum didnt bring along her hp...

Her mum kindly offered me a ride home, but unfortunately,

i'm quite stupid, i cant even recognised the way home from tuition centre...

I tried to explain to hc's mum the nearest building to my sweet home, but she didnt know the place too....

Finally, Hui Ching said she will go home first, since her home is just nearby and then make a call to my mum to ask her pick me....

How good...

Finally, my mum came and picked me home...

I even dropped Melissa at her house too cos her father went off too...

Haha...

To ah-sa: " Welcome!! It's just a small matter, not mahuan at all ^.^"

My mum said, " See?? Dun even recognise the way home. Next time, if u r kidnapped, then sure cant come home eventhough u escaped.."

Haha (True, i agreed too...XD)

Anyway, i am safely at home now...Luckily...

Oh, btw, i forgot to mention y izit no tuition rite??

Cos my tutor's father just passed away...

How sad, pity....

God bless...

Then, while waiting for our car, we were standing in front of the centre....

Whenever we saw our friends coming, we had to repeated that no tuition...(though it's not me repeating the word, it's another two kind girls...)

We were "mobile notices"...Hahax....

Going to finish my novel now...

Saying of the day:
Whenever we face a problem that seems unable to be solved, God will tell us or help us in what we do, through another medium, people or an incident....May God Bless You All.=D

Zu Hun Competition---3rd place!!

After the competition, 11pm like lo at that time^^^^^^.好累的樣子。

eee... blur blur de...still, second de is me... HeheXD

First row, second de is me, wif my instrument, 柳琴...^.^

The last saturday nite,
i just went for a competiiton...
We got 3rd after all, it's a great experience again...
Our songs changed on the last minute....
We decided to play other songs(MUKALA-MukaLa),
but then the person-in-charge insisted that we cant change...
So, we have to perform the song that we seldom practiced---好漢歌(only practiced it for once)...
So cham, but still get 3rd....
Not bad oh...
Haha, actually quite good lar...
Everyone did a good job, we are really tired on that nite...
All of us wore black, cool oh...Hehe...XD
Siaw Hong said like 黑社會。
Not bad arr。。。。
AH LONG oso got play traditional instrument de.. so nice de ah long....
幾斯文一下。。。
haha....Got influenced by AH LONG PTD. liao....
Just see some interesting photos lo...

Saying of the Day:
All GifTs & SuccEss arE giVen by God...

I straightened my hair arr!!

Haha...It's a long long time story already....
I straightened my hair oh!!
Dont know wad else to say...
But now a little curl le...
Kektiok!! See photos lo...HehehXD

Saying of the Day:
SiBlinG iS thE persOn God SenT to uS to AvoiD us FroM lonElinESS...

Wad is LOVE??

我笨笨的。。。先放照片再寫文章。。。
這問題有點敏感哦。。。
突然覺得我似乎已經不知道什么是愛了。。。
從前，
我總覺得愛很深就是真愛，所以一再的付出。。。
看到朋友們都有男朋友，女朋友， 自己真的那時也想有一位對自己好的。。。

就是這樣膚淺的想法，
讓我一直受傷。。。
但是，我長大了。。。
我拉直了頭發，或許不代表我成熟，
但卻代表我想改變。。。
我想長大。。。
不是長高，而是會有自己的想法，
不要沖動，不要再做讓自己后悔的事了。。。

“喜歡是淺淺的愛
而愛，
是深深的喜歡。。。”
這句話很有意思哦。。。

“愛，是發自內心的，
而不是言語。。。”
也很對呢。。。

“愛要關閉眼睛領悟，
不是聽信美言的迷誤。”

“水所以載舟，亦能覆舟。。
愛所以幸福，亦所以辛苦。。”

我覺得這些都說得蠻對的。。。
希望以后我可以開開心心的過美一天。。。


Saying of the Day:
No Love is greater than God's Love to us...